Friday, May 28, 2010

~Heartbroken~

Todae, my heart is hollow.. I have been shot..


For you, I gave up my work.. For you, i went all the way to bishan to c whether the pasa malam was open, so i could get food u like.. For you, i went to kovan to shop for sushi.. For you, i waited outside yr house under the hot sun.. For you, i handmade a present.. For you, I COULD DO ANYTHING!! All i want is to see you smile.. Was it so hard? Not a thank you? NOTHING? And to told some1 to ask me to get off your house gate?!?! Do you really need to do tat?

I really tot that u could sacifice for me.. Like last time u did.. U said u wun wan a BF before 'O' levels, and we managed to get tgt.. I TOT that u would do it for this time round 2.. I DUN NEED you to spend ALOT of time with me.. I just want you to be happy, be with me.. I dun need you to get me anyting.. I just wan u to be happy with me.. And you told me to give up.. After we been on tgt for 10 mths last time, u told me to give up.. I really cant.. I m sry..

What can i do? What MUST i do? What should i do? Wait??? I rather die.. Its hard for me to live.. But i will wait.. Wait for you.. Hoping we could be tgt again.. Thats wat i live to do now.. I have no more aims.. All i want is YOU.. YOU!

Cherish the people around you... There's no more second chance if u don't cherish it...™

Posted by KenLagger at 9:25 PM

Tuesday, May 25, 2010

~ Realisation ~

I have done my project on IDEAS! The presentation is done.. Now left with Bikai to do his car.. ~.~ Hope he really does it.. Now left autoCAD project.. I realised that doing my project made me occupied.. And i didnt felt pain for that few hours.. Now it has all returned back.. Perhaps thats y last time she made herself so tired.. So she doesnt have to get hurt.. Hiaz.. Really miss her.. I wished to hug her now.. T.T Hiaz.. Tmr no sch.. I guess i will rush my autoCAD project.. And study on electronics.. ~.~ I oso realised that the question for Electronics aint easy.. Must practice liao..

As the date slowly approaches, i feel excited but @ the same time afraid.. Afraid that she would ignore me.. But i feel excited as i could c her after so long.. hiaz.. Wonder if she has lost weight or any extra bruises she had recieved whn working or playing.. I seriously love her alot.. Seriously.. Hiaz..

Cherish the people around you... There's no more second chance if u don't cherish it...™

Posted by KenLagger at 9:32 PM

Sunday, May 23, 2010

~Few days after Day 3 of new life~

I have decided to go for it! I am not going to give up Yu Xin(her).. No matter what i will NEVER GIVE UP & I promise myself I WILL MARRY YOU!

Todae, i went to Orchard(TANGS) with my group ( except Shen Hao).. Idk wat happen to him andhe did not return call.. We went to research on our coffee maker.. Learnt alot of tings as i had never tried an coffee maker before! xD Hmm.. Its good thn BiKai has started talking.. Hahas..

After doing my project, it was around 11+, 12.. I felt ALONE.. I called my frens.. Some didnt pick up.. 1 did but he was busy.. I walked alone on Orchard road.. The bustling and traffic sounds.. So urban.. So, i walked this lonely road.. Looking around.. She was always on my mind.. Thn i pass ION.. We had memories there.. So i went in.. Took photos that previously i had taken whn she was in the pic.. Now its just left the scenery.. I felt so disheartened.. All the memories just flowed back into my mind.. I still could remember her wearing Long sleeved white top and her 'army patterned' slippers.. Hiaz.. I gritted my teeth and prevented my tears from coming out.. I was already at the verge.. Hiaz.. I love her too much.. Willing to do anyting for her.. I really wish that 1 day she would come back to me.. I hope she would know that i will do anyting for her..

Photos of 'missing her' in those scenery:



She Stood Beside the sign..


She took beside a shoe and i took a couple of photos (her alone)..

Cherish the people around you... There's no more second chance if u don't cherish it...™

Posted by KenLagger at 8:52 PM

Thursday, May 20, 2010

~Day 4 of new life~

Wat an tiring day.. ~.~ Lumps of Project works thrown @ me.. Zzz.. Got to do so many tings.. Timetable so packed.. Zzz.. Tmr got gym.. Thn after that i tink slacking @ roy hus.. Sat, i tink i will rush my Orthographic Drawing.. Sun, i will meet up with my group to do project.. After that watching IPman 2 with Jun xiang, Justin, Eng Kong and maybe shaun.. Thats my schedule for this week.. Next monday got to hand up the water festival donation card and get done with the project to show teacher.. Luckily my mother brought the donation card to her officer and guess what? She collected about $70+!!! Woohoo~ Thanks Mom! Mom FTW~ Hahas..

Thursday got to do present 3 times if the teacher failed to get a time where by we can do the same presentation but to different teachers.. 2 presentation is a must.. ~.~ Still must wear formally.. Zzz.. Ahh.. Tmr.. Hope it will be a nice day! I Love Mondays, Wednesdays and Fridays! Woohoo~ Didnt know i m able to adapt to poly life that fast.. Hahas.. And i love practical lessons! Last time was suppose to start @ 8 and end @ 11.. Now, Start @ 9 due to alot of late comers, and end @ 10:40++ Due to the agility of my class! Hahas.. Love it man!

Hiaz.. I really dun wan this to happen.. Hiaz.. I really hope that we will come back tgt again.. Hope that our '1 year promise' still counts.. T.T Whenever i listen to this song, i regretted leaving u.. Hiaz.. Hope you will come back to me soon.. Gonna ask u again during school holidays..


Cherish the people around you... There's no more second chance if u don't cherish it...™

Posted by KenLagger at 7:37 PM

Wednesday, May 19, 2010

~Day 3 of new life~

No school todae! Yay! Hahas.. Actually was planning to play basketball with roy.. Budden he dont have Basketball.. -.-'' Thn nvm lo.. Forget it.. Hiaz.. Tings are so complicated on my mind.. So many tings.. Makes me forget everything!~.~ Wonder if i could recall wat i have to do.. Hmm.. Another day had pass.. Wat a lifeless life..

Hiaz.. The thing that i'm afraid that it would happen has happened.. Wat a bad day.. I noe i have been a pest.. But i really wanted her back into my life.. Guess i will never happen anymore.. I have a feeling that i have lost her, not completely though.. I know she still have feelings for me.. I just knew it.. But idk y she just doesnt wan to show it, instead, she goes the opposite and ended up hurting both party.. Sigh.. Y was i so stupid.. Or maybe its really not meant to be.. I have been trying to crush her in my heart.. But it seems like my heart doesnt want it to be this way..

No matter how much i try, the next day, i will still tink of her.. I know its impossible to forget her.. The feeling is just still there.. It will never go away.. Perhaps until the day i really really really ger angry with her.. All the happy moments will just vanish into thin air.. All the times we had.. The fun, the sweet moments.. Hiaz.. Wat an decision i have made.. Nevertheless, i didnt regret.. Perhaps there might be another chance and this time after knowing the consequences, i will cherish her more.. ♥ her.. Always~ Hope she doesnt fall for others and our feelings will never fade..

Cherish the people around you... There's no more second chance if u don't cherish it...™

Posted by KenLagger at 3:31 PM

Tuesday, May 18, 2010

~Day 2 of new life~

Ahh.. Todae was suppose to reach sch @ 1.. But my lesson has been cancelled.. So only have to go sch @ 3.. Some of my classmates wan to ponten bt nt me.. Hahas.. Now, i dun feel the pain on my ear anymore~ Yay! Hahas.. Seems like i can feel the weight of the earing 2.. Hahas.. Hmm.. 4 weeks eh.. Still got a long way to go.. Hahas.. + it is so diffcult to apply the disinfection ting coz idk how.. =X

I got like 2 homework.. 1 is ask me to go blackboard(e-learning) to get, bt i cant find =/.. Another 1 is a group project.. But it seems that only me & Cheryl ( my groupmate ) does the jobs only.. The other 2, Bi Kai & Shen Hao doesnt care about this project.. Hiaz.. Sad grouping..

Hiaz.. Really wan another chance.. Just feel so wrong w/o u now.. T.T

Cherish the people around you... There's no more second chance if u don't cherish it...™

Posted by KenLagger at 12:45 PM

Monday, May 17, 2010

~Day 1 of changing~

Ahh.. Todae is a day where by i go to SP with my new hair-style & new hair colour.. Hahas.. It feels so different to me.. I find that it makes me ignore more people.. Lols.. Anyways, Yesterday didnt pierce my ear coz lazy go.. So i went just now & pierced @ Bugis.. Going alone makes me feel less afraid.. Hahas.. Stinging pain come once in awhile though.. Now still hurts abit.. Wonder how to clean it.. ~.~ Realised that my sideburn was not dyed as its still quite black.. Perhaps i have to wait for a week ba.. Hahas.. I didnt know that i must wait so long for my ear to get seasoned with the earing.. Hahas.. 4-6 weeks~ So long..

Today's lesson was so compiled.. 8-830 dun have power for the computers thn teacher nv teach.. 830++ Thn started teaching.. Chapter 4 of autoCAD is sure tough.. Got to get use to them coz Mid-Year Semester Test(MST) is @ week 7.. And now is like week 5?!? Hahas.. Todae's lesson ended @ 1230.. Thn went to eat Mac with shaun.. We ate DOUBLE QUATER POUNDER UPSIZED! Its so filling~ Luckily we still managed to finish although there are like 7 fries left.. Hahas.. Todae, i m broke~ Guess will have to take $ from piggy bank liao..~.~ And Shaun told me about his Dragon Boat(DB) training and it was like so tough!~ They ran around SP which was like 3.4km!! OMG! Thn did like 250 push-ups and 48 pull-ups.. ~.~ FTW! Like going to kill them! Hahas.. Luckily i didnt join! =]

Hiaz.. I expected it but was really hoping for a miracle! Hiaz.. Muddle-headed~ What should i do now? Hiaz.. Just hope that i m heartless~T.T If i had nv wanted to flirt! Hiaz.. Too bad.. Guess what done is done and i have to face the consequences.. Stupid me!!

Cherish the people around you... There's no more second chance if u don't cherish it...™

Posted by KenLagger at 5:13 PM

Sunday, May 16, 2010

~New Life~

Ahh.. It has sure been long ever since i blogged.. For a moment, i tot i dun need a blog anymore as i have found my listening ear.. But it seems that it has been lost..T.T Nvm.. Coming back to blog is still not a bad ting eh? Hiaz.. You have missed so much of things that has been going on in me.. So much.. Too much that i dun noe where to start from.. Alright thn.. i guess i will split it up and make it short and sweet..

O Levels Result has released.. I've got into the course i wanted which is 'Diploma in Mechatronics and Robotics'(DMRO) which is under 'School of Aeronautical and Mechanical Engineering'(SMAE).. Although at first it wasnt my ideal chose but after going to Temasek Polytechnic, a lecturer there told me about engineering, i decided to choose it.. And i got into Singapore Polytechnic(SP).. To me, Temasek poly has to take 2 rides which to me is very troublesome, So is Ngee Ann Poly.. Republic is out of the way as i m able to get into SP.. Nan Yang wasnt a bad choice 2 as my elder bro was oso in that sch.. SP was highly recommanded so i went there..

Didnt even went for my SMAE camp as i sign up for the wrong 1.. Hahas.. Signed up for the School of EEE camp.. And the WORST ting is i cant go for the camp coz is for EEE nia~ Zzz.. So nv get to meet new frens.. However, still able to stick with my Bartley Sec Sch mates that went to SP.. Nowadays, i usually go gym with my frens.. Although i declined going as i have dumbbells @ home, bt after going for 1 time, i release that becoming fit is not just about yr arm muscles but yr chest, shoulder and stuff.. So the usual ones like Roy, Aloysius, Chun Peng, Shaun, Eng Kong, Jun Nan and me would go all the way to Seng Kang( which idk y ) to gym.. Hahas.. Gyming session would take place on Fridays.. However, the SP dudes (Shaun, Jun Nan & me) would go SP gym on wednesday.. @ times whn Jun Nan CMI, Shaun and i would go on tuesday.. Hahas..

Facebooking seems to be a daily ting for me now.. Hahas.. Coz it has all the updates on photo, feelings and stuffs.. Hahas.. Can c what every1 is doing.. Awesome 'tool'.. And now, i m usually free as my timetable is very free.. Have a look:



So,i usually play computer games.. Hahas.. Or maybe go home late.. Few weeks back, i just catch a movie with my frens.. Watched Iron Man 2.. Aiming to watch IP man 2 this week.. Hahas.. And most of the time now, i listen to Korean music (KPOP) as all my frens influenced me.. Although i still prefer english songs.. But KPOP seems to suit me as well as the songs rhythm is awesome, so are the bass.. Hahas.. However, i dont search KPOP songs.. Just wait till my frens play and if i find it nice, i will get it from them.. =]

After so long of decision making, i finally dyed my hair.. And going to pierce my ear later.. Gotta try everyting eh? Although some might find me stupid but this is me.. I like to try new tings~ Hiaz.. Lets chance topic.. My classmates.. Hmm.. Some are Awesome, some are just to quiet.. Hahas.. Although i have smokers in class, but i hang out with them as they are the 'fun' of my class.. Dun worry, i wont smoke.. I just find them the best in my class, so i decided to folo them..
Hahas.. Prehaps i m like them on the inside, just that i havent release it.. Hahas.. Its fun in SP.. Foods are cheap, alot of people chattering, alots of commotions.. <3>

Just went for a camp not long ago.. Its my CCA camp.. My CCA is Adventure Club.. Its like Rock-Climbing & Kayaking.. Hahas.. I should say that my camp is fun becoz of my camp mates.. Hahas.. We do have jokers in the team, including me.. Hahas.. So have alot of fun there.. However, i guess they are just 'hi-bye frens'.. So theres nth i could say about them..

I have to go pierce my ear now.. If not ltr i dun have time to do my homework later.. So bye for now~ =]

Cherish the people around you... There's no more second chance if u don't cherish it...™

Posted by KenLagger at 3:01 PM